017 [backdated: To the day after the hearts-in-a-jar][Video/commentlog]

[halfbrokenwings]

[Her heart feels like a stone weighted in her chest and her stomach couldn't quite decide if she was going to be sick afterwards or not. Her face is red from embarrassment and shame and she certainly has the apology written across her features. ]

Yesterday. I- I need to apologize to a good many people for yesterday. I was horrible. And mean. I-I'm sorry.

[She lets out a breath she was holding and while she's talking she's not quite looking at the journal.]

I do not know if the words alone are enough but, I am sorry for what I have said, or what I have done. I- I had no real control over it.

[She swallows visibly. She doesn't know if she should name names, just in case someone does not wish to accept her apology. There was quite a number of people she messed up with that day. A number of them, like Sollux. She'll seek out personally to apologize for her rotten behavior.]

I'm sorry.

[_{ooc: You can reply as a video here, or perhaps you want the bard to deliver a personal apology? She'll be wandering the grounds looking for people to express her deepest regrets to. Open to anyone and everyone! Have at!}]

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[halfbrokenwings]

I would give my eyeteeth to ask just a single question of our 'lord'. I'll not lie and say that what has happened doesn't give my nightmares more bite but I can not continue to sit and... just ... wait to see what happens next.

[She pauses and the smile comes back in full.]

You are right. Still, it is better to ask forgiveness. Not everyone will be as quick to see what you see-

[She's sure of it.]

[thii2ii22tupiid]

Asking him is easy, getting him to give you a real answer is the problem...
...I don't know where to go from here, though. Maybe back in the temple or the forest. I don't want to try the tunnels.

*He shakes his head.*

If it was just you then maybe they might have a reason to be bitter, but lots of people were acting weird that day. Not just how you did. I don't know if anyone was unaffected.

*He didn't feel any different, but if it was something small he might not have noticed.*

They can't really hold a grudge against something they're guilty of too.

[halfbrokenwings]

Nnn... there is that.

I don't want to try the tunnels again either. No good seems to come from them, at all. The forest does not seem to be much better.

[A grounded bird, is a dead bird, after all.]

I can't do much more than speculate though, at least until the wings are healed more.

[She nods.]

This is all so very true-

[How did he do that?]

[thii2ii22tupiid]

I won't...I can't go back into those tunnels again. If that's the way out then I'll stay here.

*He sighs again and pulls his legs up on the edge of the fountain so he can rest his head on his knees.*

The forest is probably safer, but I'm not sure about it either. Even the plants want to kill you there.

*He pauses and glances to her wings.*

How are they doing? Your wings. You keep seeing that doctor but I don't know enough about wings to know if they look better. Do they at least feel better?

[halfbrokenwings]

I'm used to predators being about in the woods, but when bushes get up on their own and try to eat you, I would have to say " no" to that.

[Said feathery objects twitch and move of their own accord. She has nothing but good to say of the doctor.]

They feel so very much better, Sollux. I can bend them and I don't need the medication nearly as much now. They're extremely out of shape and the left wing is very stiff but it doesn't drag so much on the ground anymore-

[Now the expression is pure joy.]

It's exciting!

[thii2ii22tupiid]

At least they burn well enough.

*Even if he discovered that more or less by accident.
He smiles at her explanation of how her wings are doing.*

That's great! I'm kind of amazed that she's able to do so much.

*But he knows next to nothing of medicine and is entirely too full of pessimisim. At least he knows to keep his worries about how it might all fail to himself.
...He does sort of look forward to flying with her sometime, though. If it ever happens.*

You'll get them back in shape in no time, I'm sure.

[halfbrokenwings]

[She files the tidbit about fire and the plants away. It was good to know!]

A decade without them working at all- it'll take a lot of work and I'm certain to look very silly while doing it.

[She laughs.]

Speaking of things that fly! I know you know that Jetfire has offered to take me flying- that is to happen soon here. I'm still not sure of what day, if only because I have to get some things ready for it. But I will let you know when.

[thii2ii22tupiid]

Eh, everyone here looks silly most of the time anyway.

*He nods a bit.*

Yeah, I was going to come with you two. He seems like an okay guy but...I'd rather come with you anyway.

*Both for him and for her.*

What all would you need to get ready for it?

[halfbrokenwings]

[They all can't be as pretty as the Moose...]

This will be so fun!

[If Starscream doesn't show up, that is.]

I've got to sew up a warmer cloak together, well. A blanket into a cloak. It shouldn't take me too long at all, really.

[thii2ii22tupiid]

*One can only dream ;;
And with Sollux and Jetfire there hopefully any trouble will be at least lessened.*

Oh, yeah, I guess it can get colder. But at least its warmer than when all the snow was around.