"I don't know how long, I think it was about a day or two." He's not entirely certain how long he was out for, and keeping track of time since then hasn't been the easiest thing to do since he's so worn out.
"Under ground, near the hot pools. There were these notes that showed up on pigeon-birds and a lot of people went to investigate...I invited you along." He really should have known better. She didn't look to have any combat experience at all, and her mobility wasn't that great with those wings. But he was doing something important, so he'd invited what little friends he had and she ended up on the list.
Sollux stifles another yawn. "Its good your back, but I still shouldn't have let you get killed. I should have done something more to prevent it or stop everyone from going down there. Everything got fucked up really quickly and I don't think we even got anything good out of it. I knew better, I should have just gone down by myself and saved everyone the trouble, but I wasn't thinking." God, he was SUCH an idiot, why the hell did a group seem like a good idea? Even with his powers weaker down here, he was the only one that really avoided those beasts. If he'd gone alone he could have moved so much quicker...
"I'm sorry. I'm so goddamned sorry, I don't know how to even say it. I got everyone hurt and I got you killed, and even if you don't remember it now you're starting to remember it so you're going to remember being eaten, motherfucking eaten alive but this fucking stone beast and..." He trails off. Anything else he could say is just the same thing over and over.
It was bad enough when he killed Aradia, but then it had been Vriska controlling him. This time he'd done it all by himself and he had no idea how to fix that, even if she was back she was clearly broken. What if she never remembered everything? What if something else was wrong? What if...god, there were too many possibilities. He groans and holds his head in his hands.
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"Under ground, near the hot pools. There were these notes that showed up on pigeon-birds and a lot of people went to investigate...I invited you along."
He really should have known better. She didn't look to have any combat experience at all, and her mobility wasn't that great with those wings. But he was doing something important, so he'd invited what little friends he had and she ended up on the list.
Sollux stifles another yawn. "Its good your back, but I still shouldn't have let you get killed. I should have done something more to prevent it or stop everyone from going down there. Everything got fucked up really quickly and I don't think we even got anything good out of it. I knew better, I should have just gone down by myself and saved everyone the trouble, but I wasn't thinking."
God, he was SUCH an idiot, why the hell did a group seem like a good idea? Even with his powers weaker down here, he was the only one that really avoided those beasts. If he'd gone alone he could have moved so much quicker...
"I'm sorry. I'm so goddamned sorry, I don't know how to even say it. I got everyone hurt and I got you killed, and even if you don't remember it now you're starting to remember it so you're going to remember being eaten, motherfucking eaten alive but this fucking stone beast and..." He trails off. Anything else he could say is just the same thing over and over.
It was bad enough when he killed Aradia, but then it had been Vriska controlling him. This time he'd done it all by himself and he had no idea how to fix that, even if she was back she was clearly broken. What if she never remembered everything? What if something else was wrong? What if...god, there were too many possibilities.
He groans and holds his head in his hands.